I think my lack of posts is due to the fact that I keep viewing this as a place where my thoughts have to be actually thought-out (I didn't mean for that to sound so stupid). That's what I mean, I guess. What I mean is that I keep thinking about it like those really intense blogs with references, links, etc. Anyway, I like the way Maggie uses this, as more of a journal between the three of us.

For awhile I've been thinking about writing this long blog post about my obsession (sort of like Maggie and colors) with gender, more specifically masculinity / femininity / androgyny / etc but fuck it. It will have to wait.

This whole day I've been listening to Baby Love by the Supremes over and over again. It's really weird and nonsensical because I'm not anywhere near a relationship and haven't ever been, really. I think it has a lot to do with my fascination and fixation on the idea of relationship and my idealistic criteria for what constitutes a real one.

Which is stupid because I'm 18 and all that means is that I'm irrationally choosy and shy. Fuck that.